Hey peeps, and welcome to another Project Unicorn blog! Isn’t the weather gorgeous at the moment?! It certainly is where I am in the UK. Glorious sunshine and heat. The birds are singing, the cats are soaking up the rays and the dogs are having a jolly good time running around in the grass.
Peeps… I think I’m… happy… Like, truly happy…
It’s really scary!
Haha! I love how I’m worrying about being happy! This is the thing I’ve been aiming for, a goal I’ve had in mind for a while… and now I’m worried again. I’m worried that it won’t last, that the come-down will be more than I bear…
But, at the same time… I don’t want to be worrying. The worry and the happiness come in waves, like gentle water lapping at a beach. Yeah, apparently I get all poetic and descriptive when I’m happy. Enjoy!
I think I’m so used to being anxious, so used to worrying that it’s become a habit. I’m so used to not feeling good enough and not being happy with my life, not feeling like a success or capable of achieving anything that I can’t recognise these feelings for what they are.
I didn’t have a single day off sick last week. Not one. For me, that’s amazing. I’ve not binged on food in 2 weeks. That’s also amazing. I’m so proud of myself.
Sure, I’ve had dips; I can look back over the last 2-3 weeks and see the odd difficult day. I’ve smoked a few cigarettes to keep from cutting but y’know what, I’m not smoking anymore, not for 4 days, and I feel brilliant.
The house is in order, I’m getting back on top of the laundry and the dishes… The dogs are so happy as well now that I’m happy.
So… how could I keep this going as much as possible?
- Write more of my book (that gives me a huge sense of pride in my achievement and it’s a great use of my extra energy)
- Exercise (I can improve my cardiovascular health and lose some weight, which will boost my self-esteem even more)
- Get ahead of the housework (so that it’s easier on the not-so-good days)
Yeah! I can do this!!!
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Until next time… stay amazing, my fellow unicorns!